Prarage - My Rage

I never wanted myself looking at the mercy of being ripped off emotionally. I was standing there staring at a close friend who seem to ignore my presence. I knew it would happen but still i was there to experience that. It looked like she knew what i was up to. I never imagined nor wanted to end my relationship like that. I was chatting with another friend pretending to be ignoring her. 5 mins since I started the conversation and it looked like a decade to me. I was pretending to be ignoring her and she was doing the same. I was just standing there waiting for her to acknowledge my presence. Wish I was never there. But it never materialized. So it hit me in the middle of the conversation. This has to end soon and i thought it should end now. Thats where i realised the pain i would go through. But it was all over. There was nothing to say. I moved away from my friend and walked towards her. She was there sitting. She didn’t even cared to look at me. Gosh I should have hurt her bad. She couldn’t even look at me! I guess it was not so easy for me either. I said: “Hi”. It sounded like i was striking a conversation with a stranger. She responded in a negative fashion. I choose to ignore that and went ahead to say something. But when she looked at me, it was all over. I knew I was talking to a stranger. It turned out to be a normal conversation and she was not forth coming to even continuing the talk. I said bye to her and left.